Cedric-It’s the choices that make us who we are and we can always choose to do whats right

The start of the new year is approaching...

Boy...its gonna be the end of the holidays...sad. I seldom play...all this studying is really killing me...everyday same routine...no fun. But I must do it. The O-levels is next year and everyone is mugging so hard...its rather hard to keep up with the pace. Its like you have to run four rounds around the earth and next year would be the last lap for most of us. Its like we all have to keep our stamina up and pace ourselves in order to stay on the track. I am really confused. Too many conflicts and commitments this holiday. I keep on thinking of many things in my head. I really don't know how to overcome them. I realised my mistake during PSLE and I would not want to let history repeat itself...I did not study last time thats why I got such ugly results during PSLE. But now,I want to forge a new beggining...a beginning thats worth being a memory in my mind.


Today...woke up at around 11 plus in the late morning...rather a cold atmosphere...the birds don't seem to chirp as loud as they used to do. I could see the instant formation of the water droplets that was formed on my window...it was a new day for everyone.The sun continued to rise as afternoon approached. I strolled along my corridor,thinking of something...someone. I knew that what I seek was impossible. I knew I had to let it go. I started to blast wild thoughts into my empty mind...I pictured myself in the hall having my o-levels...the sound of the minute hand from the clock ticked as time flies...then droplets of pespiration triggled down my forehead. I was feeling quite uneasy and I feared on the actual day of the exams,I would feel nervous and block the path for me to think. Then early in the afternoon,I spent my time doing A-maths. I started to brush up my skills by first attempting the more challenging segment. After I finished,I took up some english newspaper and browsed through various sections of the newspaper. Then, did some physics practices,hoping to strengthen the physics foundation of mine...then went to play my xbox....have not touch it for many weeks...and now blogging. I did not really think what I would want to do later in the late night...really clueless...very lost. Last time in the late night I still have someone to talk to,someone cheerful,funny and would share experience but now...no more...i don really know what happen...its been very long ever since that person call...I did try to call that person but no one pick up. I did not want to continue calling or it would become more of a pester...i don wish to ruin the friendship further...thats why I must try to control......

Labels: vacation.

posted by Cedric @ 7:31 PM